i know moving away meant you were finally free. free from all the pain that has happened to you here. your father's suicide and your mother running afterwards. i know this sounds selfish but i need you here with me you were the first thing in my life that ever made any sense. i regret never saying that simple three words to you. i wonder to this day if i said i love if you would have left. those 1,120 miles wont stop me if you ever need me. ill be there even i have to run to you.

if your reading this i want you to know i do love you with everything i can love you with.

thoughts

around a year ago i talked to someone for like a week and it was the best week ever. i wanna talk to her again couple of you know who she is, hell she might even read this blog. iono

2. i want to be teacher- either dealing with like elementary age kids cause any older and im likely to beat the shit outta of them for smarting of or mentally handicap children